Sunday I was not feeling so hot. I felt nauseous, tired, irritable and to top it all off.....Madi decided that she just wasn't going to listen to a SINGLE WORD I SAID.
Let me just say that she was in timeout practically all day and there was a lot of yelling and I wanted to pull every single strand of hair out of my head. She was obedient only when she finally fell asleep at 9:30pm. And I definitely cried because it was not my best mommy day. Those days leave me zapped of energy and I feel so underserving of having children.
Monday is not looking so much better.
Today I am feeling a tad bit better but not much. Madi was just told by Daddy that she better listen to me or he will have to discipline her when he gets home. Funny how she turns to me with those big blue eyes and says "I'm sorry Mommy, I'll listen."
I'm a sucker for that little girl's blue eyes. Can't resist them.
This morning on Facebook I put on my status that it was going to be hot and I would be spending time in the pool. A friend said I should go to the mall and walk. I know she was trying to encourage me since I really want this kid out and walking can help with stimulating labor. But I just wasn't having it today and I snapped.
Whoops.
Not my best moment as a friend.
I think I need to lock myself away with a HUGE VENTI CARAMEL FRAPPUCINO and read my bible. Because apparently my attitude and my tongue are causing me to do a whole bunch of things I am not proud of. I could blame it on the fact that I am still pregnant and I am hormonal. But really I can control what I say and how I react. There is no need for the behavior I have shown the last couple of days.
Yep, definitely going to lock myself away. Hubby will just have to babysit for a little while. I think he will be okay with that. ;)
Tiff~
